Why IVF?

Not long after I shared that I was going to do IVF I was asked by several people why I had given up on love. My answer, “I haven’t”

I know without a doubt my person is out there still. I know one day he will walk into my life and I will know. In fact I get butterflies thinking about that moment.

I didn’t chose to do IVF because I’ve given up on love. I chose it because I wanted to be a mom.

On Valentine’s Day in 2019 when my mom and I were talking she said multiple times that I can’t put my life on hold because the perfect guy hasn’t come into my life. She reminded me that there are things in life I can’t control but there are also things I can control. I have to chase after the things I can change and let the rest fall into place. Again, as I said in my previous post, the words she said to me that day will forever have an impact on how my life went.

After that conversation I began to look at my life differently. I wrote down my goals and step by step how to get there. I highlighted all the steps I have control over. Being a mom has always been a goal of mine and I 100% had control over that.

I chose IVF because it was my way of living life on my terms.

I was terrified to do this on my own. I have cried many tears knowing Krew does not have a dad right now, knowing whoever ends up being his dad has missed out on so much already. I felt so selfish for doing this to satisfy a want of mine.

With all that said, I know without a doubt I have made the right decision. There have been moments throughout this entire process that have confirmed this and every day when I look into Krews eyes and he smiles at me, when he hugs me, kisses my cheek or says “mama” my heart melts and I know I did the right thing!

Please don’t ever let society, friends or family tell you how your life should go. Don’t let them talk you out of chasing your dreams. You are the only person who gets to decide if your dreams are right or wrong.

Know that whatever you are after in this life, you can have it!! If nothing else, you have my full support! I promise there will be people who don’t support you. I have people in my life who don’t support me, but there are so many people who share their love day in and day out. People who are cheering for me no matter what and you’ll have that too! You’ll have people you didn’t even know cared, show how much they care.

It’s your life, believe in it!!!